Just Write

I feel like I've been documenting events and birthdays for the past month and I haven't gotten a chance to just write.  I've had so much on my mind.

Dan left yesterday for southern California.  Some days I want Dan to quit touring. The desire comes usually on the first day of a tour and again the last couple days of a tour.

We do very little to prepare for tours. It's almost like we pretend it's not going to happen. We tend to live life one day at a time, which can be endearing and fun but not when it's literally hours before Dan has to leave and he has no clean underwear.

We haven't had a date in weeks.  We have been so consumed with our kiddo's birthday, visitors, and his touring schedule that we just didn't get one.  I really didnt want him to leave yesterday.  I was in a sad state.

After work, I got BB from daycare and took him to the park for milk and cookies (formula and Arrowroot crackers) and a few rides down the mini-slide.  I took him home and cooked up some homemade pizza while he played with his new birthday toys and we had a fun dinner which had him screaming and nomming with delight over the food I had prepared for him and I had to stop and be thankful.  Thankful that we have a safe park to play at, thankful for the sun, thankful for happy baby who loves the dinners I cook for him.

Even though I am missing my husband very, very much I have to remember that Dan is missing out, too.  That even though I'd love to be in California with him, he would love to be home with us playing with blocks while mama makes pizza.

This is our life.

So, it's just me and BB for a couple weeks, folks.  We're going to make the most of it!