There was a time when I was desperate for my child. I was working "full time" from home as a marketing assistant. "Full time' because my hours were loose and I could go for a run mid-day or meet a friend for a long lunch if I felt like it. Liam was a foster child so the state payed for his childcare, just a mile down the road. Nana's. She adored Liam and the other 6 or 7 kids. Liam was the baby the entire time he attended Nana's. He was doted upon daily. I spent a solid 2 - 3 hours with him each morning and I was depserate to pick him up 7 hours later. We'd eat dinner and play until bedtime. He was getting so much from me.
When we moved to Nashville we decided I'd stay home for a while. Now that I'm a wedding planner and wedding photographer, I work about 20 days a year with a few meetings a month. I'm home with my kids. A lot. A lot a lot a lot. I cherish it. I really do. I cherish it every night when I'm reflecting on my beautiful boys. Or when I'm blogging. But when I'm in the thick of it and Ronan is cluster feeding and gassy while Liam is jumping off the dining room table and calling me "Poopy" all I want is a break. 88.6% of the reason we have a YMCA membership is not because I want to workout but because they have free childcare while I work out.
Mama. Needs. a. Break.
I'm not afraid to admit that because most of my stay at home mom friends echo these same sentiments. I'm not saying I'm not going to cry when Liam starts kindergarten. I will. But, I will take a moment to appreciate his teachers and his classmates and I will enjoy the crap out of my freetime and excitedly pick him up every day. I'm just a better mom when I get a little help now and then.
These boys of mine need me at my best. They need friends and family. They need a strong, attentive mother. Especially that Liam. If he's not given guidance he could quite literally bounce off the walls or set the house on fire. Parenting two has been difficult. Thankfully, for the sake of the four of us, Ronan is a sweet, happy baby. For all of you who check in with me regularly, pray for us and care for us. I'm thankful for your encouragement. We feel your love. This parenting thing is not for the faint of heart.
All you parents out there: Take a break! You'll be better for it. Afterall, it takes a village and you're robbing your village by not sharing your family with others.